I learnt everything about that man, I did.
I learnt how his face curls to a smile, and how he whines about having not shaved, but won't do much about it.
How his voice sounds when his eyes first open in the afternoon, and how it drifts into a silence of breath and movement when his eyes close.
And how he likes to drown his coffee with milk and anything else sweet.
And how much he drinks of it.
How he likes to roll his own tobacco, but will settle for store bought cig's if he's got no choice.
I loved him for every last bit of those mannerisms.
But he loved me as a form of charity.
Not in a way of loving one who
Who's broken,
It's like h
I've devoted this month
towards sorrow again
but the pain in my
heart isn't meant to
show on my skin
but it does
time and time again
I've left myself with
nasty scars on my thighs
and gashes on my wrists
but no one could see
this month that i've
devoted to you and only you
I've been the blind mans buff
and the plaster for a wound
that would never heal
Last night I dreamt of you, by Radpoppy, literature
Literature
Last night I dreamt of you,
Last night
I dreamt of you.
My mind can't
Understand how to
Break off ties
That I have now.
So it's trying
It's hardest
To piece what's broken
back together again.
Whether it's meaningful.
Or something that's small,
In size and matter.
You were still
In my dreams.
Cluttering it with
Your presence.
If I can't escape to
this place that's been
painted as euphoric
fields of
Happy and painless
Swept along the shore
Where else am I supposed
To hide when nothing
Goes right for me
Anymore?
all I heard was static
and small mounts of
laughter and I could see
smiles though they weren't
towards me nor was it a mirror
I knew I'd been misplaced
in this earth but it wasn't
as simple as feeling
left out or ignored and while
those are components of this
I feel like this is just a nightmare
yet I awake to it
nervous ticks an array of
self made remedies to keep
grounded while surrounded
by my own race and it shakes
me to my bones that I feel
so terribly misunderstood
disenfranchised and fruitless
embraced by those who are
of my own DNA
You're like nicotine
The less I have of you
The more I'd like of you
But when I have the most
I could possibly have
I want more
Until I'll breathe in
Every last word you
Say and every last breath
You exhale until my lungs
Are absolutely polluted
With your existence
So heavily I grow
ill of cancer
Everything's so plastic.
The world's cluttered with it,
Worse enough, Once it's gone
You could just replace it
because that's how disposable
It's gotten to be.
It bothers me.
And I'll cry, We all do.
In the end.
The good die, and so do the bad.
But the weak had never began;
So endlessly they exist.
It was like his words were so cold, it made everything go numb. Everyone, too. There's a way about how his lips form to his words, not by choice but by force. Such assertive ways of speaking and overbearing tones always rung through my ears as if he'd been yelling in my face when really, he could've been a mile away but his voice. I'd hear it over an orchestra. Just as much as he knew this; he'd never change himself for the worse to see if I'd stay or for the better to see if I'd grow comfortable. He just left you wondering. As if he didn't want anyone to like or love him- but it was ever so easy to in the end. " Don't let your mouth get your
Maybe there's something missing.
It could be the rope that'll pull you
back up from the depth that you're
About to lose yourself in.
Whether it be drugs or pills that weren't
meant to addict you to it's sleep inducing ways
Or it's way that it could make you into
Someone you wished you were.
But you aren't.
Sometimes you need to let go
of the last thing that's keeping you afloat
Just so breathing isn't taken for granted
Or maybe you need to full your lungs
With some water just so you can stay
Grounded when you lose your head.
In the end you just need to learn
To find something else to lose yourself in.
Something that tastes better than sadnes
I learnt everything about that man, I did.
I learnt how his face curls to a smile, and how he whines about having not shaved, but won't do much about it.
How his voice sounds when his eyes first open in the afternoon, and how it drifts into a silence of breath and movement when his eyes close.
And how he likes to drown his coffee with milk and anything else sweet.
And how much he drinks of it.
How he likes to roll his own tobacco, but will settle for store bought cig's if he's got no choice.
I loved him for every last bit of those mannerisms.
But he loved me as a form of charity.
Not in a way of loving one who
Who's broken,
It's like h
I've devoted this month
towards sorrow again
but the pain in my
heart isn't meant to
show on my skin
but it does
time and time again
I've left myself with
nasty scars on my thighs
and gashes on my wrists
but no one could see
this month that i've
devoted to you and only you
I've been the blind mans buff
and the plaster for a wound
that would never heal
Last night I dreamt of you, by Radpoppy, literature
Literature
Last night I dreamt of you,
Last night
I dreamt of you.
My mind can't
Understand how to
Break off ties
That I have now.
So it's trying
It's hardest
To piece what's broken
back together again.
Whether it's meaningful.
Or something that's small,
In size and matter.
You were still
In my dreams.
Cluttering it with
Your presence.
If I can't escape to
this place that's been
painted as euphoric
fields of
Happy and painless
Swept along the shore
Where else am I supposed
To hide when nothing
Goes right for me
Anymore?
all I heard was static
and small mounts of
laughter and I could see
smiles though they weren't
towards me nor was it a mirror
I knew I'd been misplaced
in this earth but it wasn't
as simple as feeling
left out or ignored and while
those are components of this
I feel like this is just a nightmare
yet I awake to it
nervous ticks an array of
self made remedies to keep
grounded while surrounded
by my own race and it shakes
me to my bones that I feel
so terribly misunderstood
disenfranchised and fruitless
embraced by those who are
of my own DNA
You're like nicotine
The less I have of you
The more I'd like of you
But when I have the most
I could possibly have
I want more
Until I'll breathe in
Every last word you
Say and every last breath
You exhale until my lungs
Are absolutely polluted
With your existence
So heavily I grow
ill of cancer
Everything's so plastic.
The world's cluttered with it,
Worse enough, Once it's gone
You could just replace it
because that's how disposable
It's gotten to be.
It bothers me.
And I'll cry, We all do.
In the end.
The good die, and so do the bad.
But the weak had never began;
So endlessly they exist.
It was like his words were so cold, it made everything go numb. Everyone, too. There's a way about how his lips form to his words, not by choice but by force. Such assertive ways of speaking and overbearing tones always rung through my ears as if he'd been yelling in my face when really, he could've been a mile away but his voice. I'd hear it over an orchestra. Just as much as he knew this; he'd never change himself for the worse to see if I'd stay or for the better to see if I'd grow comfortable. He just left you wondering. As if he didn't want anyone to like or love him- but it was ever so easy to in the end. " Don't let your mouth get your
Maybe there's something missing.
It could be the rope that'll pull you
back up from the depth that you're
About to lose yourself in.
Whether it be drugs or pills that weren't
meant to addict you to it's sleep inducing ways
Or it's way that it could make you into
Someone you wished you were.
But you aren't.
Sometimes you need to let go
of the last thing that's keeping you afloat
Just so breathing isn't taken for granted
Or maybe you need to full your lungs
With some water just so you can stay
Grounded when you lose your head.
In the end you just need to learn
To find something else to lose yourself in.
Something that tastes better than sadnes